My Experience With Functioning Depression

All my life I have dealt with anxiety and depression in some form. From mild to suicidal, I’ve run the depression and anxiety gamut. I’ve had panic attacks (two of which cost me a job) and I’ve been Baker Acted twice for suicide. But even with all of that experience, it took me years to figure out that I was dealing with functioning depression (I’d call it high-functioning, but I was functioning on a very low level).Read More »

How Insecurity Ruins Relationships

Relationships can be difficult. They can be beautiful and wonderful, sure, but damn can they be difficult. Sometimes, without even realizing it, we make them harder than they need to be. One of the ways we do that is by making our own problem – something only we can solve – the problem of our partner, too.

Here’s an example from my own life (since that’s what this site is all about, ya know). When my husband and I first started dating I was very insecure. I still don’t have very good self-esteem, but at the time it was completely non-existent. Over the years I have gained some, but it’s a daily battle.

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When Doctors Do Harm

I have worked in the medical field for a decade now and in that time I have met some very good doctors. Doctors who are honest, caring and compassionate and who genuinely want to help their patients.

That said, the following two doctors permanently tainted my view of doctors – especially in the mental health field – indefinitely.Read More »

The Difference Between Addiction & Dependency

Both in life and online, I often see people confusing the two terms. Especially how they relate to opiates or pain medications. It is very difficult for a lot of people to understand how someone who is addicted to an opioid differs from someone who is dependent. They do share one similarity, so I can understand this to an extent, but even with that, they are two very different issues with very different symptoms, causes and treatments.Read More »

“It Must Be Nice…”

There are a few sayings or phrases that I’m honestly just so tired of hearing, but this one makes the top of the list. Generally, when I hear this phrase it’s directly after I’ve told someone that I work part-time (or, currently am looking for part-time work). It never fails and it doesn’t matter really who I tell it to. When I say that I work 20 hours or so a week, I hear, “Well, it must be nice to not have to work full time.”Read More »

What Chronic Pain Takes Away

Monday was the five year anniversary of the accident which left me in chronic pain. This has been with me for half a decade, but it feels like it just happened.

I am one of the more fortunate ones who deals with chronic pain, because my pain doesn’t completely stop me from being able to function. I’m able to work part-time and can generally go out and do things when needed. Of course there are more at home days than out of the house days, but compared to some people I know dealing with chronic pain, my situation isn’t the worst.Read More »