My Experience With Functioning Depression

All my life I have dealt with anxiety and depression in some form. From mild to suicidal, I’ve run the depression and anxiety gamut. I’ve had panic attacks (two of which cost me a job) and I’ve been Baker Acted twice for suicide. But even with all of that experience, it took me years to figure out that I was dealing with functioning depression (I’d call it high-functioning, but I was functioning on a very low level).Read More »

How Insecurity Ruins Relationships

Relationships can be difficult. They can be beautiful and wonderful, sure, but damn can they be difficult. Sometimes, without even realizing it, we make them harder than they need to be. One of the ways we do that is by making our own problem – something only we can solve – the problem of our partner, too.

Here’s an example from my own life (since that’s what this site is all about, ya know). When my husband and I first started dating I was very insecure. I still don’t have very good self-esteem, but at the time it was completely non-existent. Over the years I have gained some, but it’s a daily battle.

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Me, Too

I’m a bit late here, but today I’m going to share my #MeToo story. If you’re unaware of this campaign, you can see more about it here. Although I’ve dealt with this twice in my life, I’m going to focus on the harassment I received in the workplace. The assault I experienced as a child will be saved for another time.

“If It Were Me, I’d…”

We all think we know how we’d react in any given situation. We have in our minds that if it were us, we’d stick up for ourselves or fight back. And after being assaulted as a child, I swore up and down that I would never let anyone make me feel like that again. I told myself that if someone ever tried to harass or assault me again I would fight back. I’m not a meek person nor do I put up with injustice. However, I’ve found that I’m much better at standing up for others than I am standing up for myself.Read More »

When Doctors Do Harm

I have worked in the medical field for a decade now and in that time I have met some very good doctors. Doctors who are honest, caring and compassionate and who genuinely want to help their patients.

That said, the following two doctors permanently tainted my view of doctors – especially in the mental health field – indefinitely.Read More »

Resilience: A Learned Behavior

If I had a dime for every project I’ve abandoned, I would be able to retire at the ripe ol’ age of 29. I’m not proud of it by any means, but it’s the truth.

There are a couple of reasons for it. First, I hate being bad at something, even if I’ve never done it. Second, I was never taught how to be resilient or to not give up when I couldn’t get something right.Read More »

Situational Introversion

There was a time many moons ago when I was outgoing and extroverted. I could talk to anyone about anything and fit in with any group. I enjoyed getting out of the house and going places and seeing people. Nothing about being in a social situation scared me. Sure, I didn’t like crowds, but back then it was just because I didn’t want to get trampled in the event of a disaster. (That is still a very valid fear of mine, by the way…) That all changed a few years ago.Read More »

Underlying Causes of Addiction

I’ve spoken before of chronic pain and how the current drug epidemic affects those of us who suffer from it. Today I want to talk about the other side of the issue: Those dealing with addiction.

Although we tend to treat addiction as a criminal issue instead of what it is – a mental health issue, the problem is not as black and white as we would like for it to be. It’s a multi-faceted issue and is full of gray areas.Read More »